Referral Update

I'm just a big old blubbering mess tonight.

I went to a store called Hobby-Lobby (great store by the way) today after work. When I entered I found my path lead me to a display of Lady-bugs. Not just any display, but big splashes of red, beautiful lady-bugs looking back at me. The color red is considered good luck in China; and lady-bug sittings are considered by many of us adopting parents a sure sign that referrals can be coming. Well I stood there in the glow of these numerous lady-bugs of every shape, size, and caricature. I felt an overwhelming sense of peace, happiness and pure Joy. I just knew there was news waiting for me at home. I saw this one lady-bug bank smiling at me and I bought it for Karen. This lady-bug was meant for our little girl. When I arrived home sure enough there was big news.

Referrals are in the mail which means that any day now we will see Karen's face for the very first time. It could be as early as Friday or as late as Monday. I can barely type without tears clouding my vision. Tears of true joy! All I can think about is questions. What will she look like? How old will she be? Will she have a full head of hair or be a bald baby? What is my baby doing right now? It's daytime there as I write this. Is she waiting for her mama, daddy and big brother? I know her family is certainly waiting for her.

I'm a crying mess and David is shouting for joy and its only "in the mail". It finally feels real to me. Our baby girl's picture is only a few days away...a few days, finally. Family and friends check back soon because you will see her picture here next time I post!

Where-ever you are, what-ever providence you're in my sweet baby girl may you feel my heartbeat, for I feel your heartbeat...two heartbeats, one song.